Sunday, October 25, 2009

Off my mind and out of the blue

Understanding a person's limit is essential.... this is so that we can be able to push the limit further and further away. . When we do not understand our own limit, we would never be able to do a very good judgment on ourselves and therefore make decisions that would not be effective and efficient in the long run.

I know my Liquor Limit. That is why I do not get drunk till the point i don't remember the day before. But of course. there are times where drinking more than i should is not under my control.

I Know my physical running limit, roughly quantifiable, but not a very accurate one yet. 2KM i start to perspire, 4km I start to feel the kick, 8 Km my body starts burning the stored energy, 10km my peak , 14km , starts to weaken , 16km body not enough energy to continue to run constantly, 18km gone case. have to walk. 21km stagger and limping. If i go slower, everything should be able to times 1.5 times the distance.

I know my financial limit. Know when to spend where and how to spend. That is why i don't overspend and keep myself within budget.

I know my anger limit. Its quite huge, people seldom see me angry.

But there are somethings that I can't seem to know, and anyway i don't think they are quantifiable. Things like... How much I am willing to love, my knowledge of things. Things that I would like to learn but not yet learn...

Things I don't know will never cease to come. But I would love to reduce them to as little as possible. I think too much, learn too much, store too much stuffs that my hair turns white.


Of another topic - I am a Libra, a very typical one in fact. Some facts that fellow Libra's might want to know to understand themselves better. We care a lot about how other people see us... and would actually do things sub-consciously to keep up to that image.



People always say that we are fickle minded, but would always make the choice that everyone would like. This is actually caused by our need for the best possible decisions that would make everyone see us in good light. That is why, never ask a Libra to make a choice between 2 friends, or even a decision that might cause another party to view us in bad light... we can never do it. We dread doing it.
Because of this need to let other people see us in good light, Libra's will always be helpful, image conscious , confident, bright, attention grabbing, well-groom , neat and all the good stuffs add together. Seldom you will see a flaw in them... People will describe a Libra's flaw as "人太好了,会被人欺负。" If not it would be the indecisiveness on stuffs on dates/ projects/ meetings/ group outing/ place to go. Its because we know whats in our mind will not cater to whats in the other party's idea, but we do not want to impair the image that we etch in their mind. Ever wondered Why some of the most famous and well liked celebrities are libras?

In fact, we are not as good as we seem to be. When no one sees us, our true nature might come. Why did i say "might"? That is because if we live in our multi-persona for too long, we don't really know what represents our true self anymore.

Some people might disagree with what I say, saying that there are libras who do not fit into this profile. But of course. this is meant to be something that would apply to majority of us. Then let me ask the chicken and egg question... which came first? How we project our image to you, or we imagine how you imagine we would be. The latter wins.

A personal example. During lower secondary school, I had imagined that people from my class would view me as any boy would be, playful and with bad grades... thats what i gave them .
During Upper secondary, I changed class to a slower paced class... I was ammused about how my classmates see me as a clever boy who is hardworking in the first day of class. And thus, you guessed it... My grades soared.... I went from last 10-15 in school cohord to the top 15-25 . ( Intersting right ? think about it )

Ask any libra, I am sure they would understand what I am saying and might chucke and be astonished at how insanely close it is to them.

This is coming from me, a family made up of 3 libras + 1 cancer.