Feelings

2 days ago... I felt like a failure.. .
But when i look back, I must be able to stand up . Change my mindset.
Alot had went through my mind.

Risk taking... Its just whether i want to win, or i set myself down as a failure.
I had given up, and thus the last failure was me that day...

Giving up is a very dangerous thing. I need to understand this fact .

Failures are only failures when they give up.
I have not fail yet.
I will persevere and continue to try.
I play to win.

Lots of time when i look back.. I regretted many things that i did.
But what ever I had regretted, I don't regret them .
Regret does not bring me anywhere.. even if it does, it won't be anywhere good.
So, i would always want to forget what i had done and just get over with them .
No use living in past dreams.

The power of today. The power of now.


Yesterday was gone, there is nothing we can do to change it .
Tomorrow will never come. there will always be another tomorrow
But we have the power to change today's tomorrow and all the tommorrows that comes after that. We do it by changing today.
Now is the time that we have to do something . when we want to do something. Just do it. . for tomorrow never comes.

BZ BZ

Chingay Busy.
Work Busy
Weird Weird Stuff Busy
Read Books Busy
Preparation Busy
So Busy.
Spare time to build assets one day soon.
How.. no time for my friends like ...
Like that i'll become zai nan already..

Stay at home all day. go out don't want to spend money.
i became thrifty, not because i want to , but because i do not have enough money to last me for 4 more months.
I'll be out of cash soon.. oh. no.....

No, i am not going to find a job. Sorry guys. Those who knows me, will know why.
And no, i am not going to study yet. Not yet.. Not so fast. Just wish me luck ...

And so sorry, I really have no cash to lend you, "friend". Why only come to me when you need money? I can only help you spiritually and mentally. Run errands also can.. but money? very sensitive question. I don't know you that well, and I cannot lend you money just based on your so called " assure me". Too many doubts forming. Sorry "Friend" .

By the way, why everyone that comes to me to borrow money always ask for $300 , Do i look like I can only lend $300 or is there other reason to why $300? My mom told me that the reason is that $300 is not a large sum if you really think of it, so even if they forfeit the amount , I wouldn't bark on them for long also. Its a psychologically safe amount to ask for. I agree to it. If anyone wants to borrow 300 from me, i'll reject them. Cause anyone who ask this amount = don't intend to return.

ROI for this = 0 to -infinite%
Net Capital = -300
Cash Flow = 0

Recommendation = Sorry I cannot lend you even if i have enough money to .

Good nite world. Good night to you

2 more days...

looking back... have i done enough? or efficiently?

not very sure... but 2 more days it'll be the start of my contract for myself...
a struggle for 3 years..... I must be able to fulfil my contract and do my best!

That's my ultimate goal.
People may start calling me siao, or worth nothing...
I don't care...
I am not going to find a Job..
But I'll be working for myself.

I believe that we are what we always do . and excellence is a habit and not an act.
also... often great minds will face strong opposition from mediocre minds.

Write off.. I'll reach my goal.

Habit.

Had a chat with my cous today. Very happy too, gave me lots of insights to many things. and it had also boosted my morale in what i am doing. would love to chat with him again.

May all of us succeed in our goals. Financial Freedom.

Aristote : We are what we repeatedly do , excellence therefore is not an act but a habit.

Take a step back to leap further...

Feeling down...

It seems that i've failed this time round... but i am sure i will be able to do the the next time.
Time is important. And i need to constantly win. I cannot let a few losses deal mental blows to me... The US market is irradical and i was not well prepared enough. My skills level below the anticipated. I need to Look at myself and see what I am missing. How good am I with certain Things. I aim to learn the ins and outs of the US markets by next month. Research, Learn, Research... understand...

TA, how they really function. At least 70% of the Tools that is supposed to be used. FA, what are the meaning of certain figures and how are they used to judge. Volatility... how to read and understand .. and how to use it. Insider trading... how much would they affect.

The industries. How each affect each other. Economic news. how to read them. Options trending.

I enjoy what i am doing... but excellence is what i aim for while enjoying... Patience Wins Battles..

I'll take a step back... the relearn everything again.... so that i can leap further... better.

Am i just...

someone who board the bus halfway there and alights half way back?

what am i?

YMD/YWD Formation day

I am a stage crew.
felt that its not easy... or maybe i should say, its tiring. i see the stage manager managing the show, quite professional. many minor details were not missed out as we had went through in thought and in sequence. we also went through a few rehearsals. quite interesting due to the fact that even till the last minute, many things were still being changed. It takes alot to be a good host. one that doesn't need a script but still bring out the gist of the what the show is trying to say. The host also need a good response rate and quick thinking. If not there would be many many sticky situations to deal with.

We had a celebrity as host. It was quite interesting and learning experience to see him host and respond to the many many changes that occur behind the scene. Last minute insertion , Overrun in time. change of schedule, performer's stage fright, missing items, wrong camera focusing. lighting problem, sound problem, mic problem, all sorts of problem.

Nice day today!

I have things in my mind... that i cannot tell people about...
I have things in my mind... that i cannot say...

It have to remain in my heart until I sort out myself.

In search of ... something i saw somewhere...

nothing to say

Give me 30 Days....

Woah... I am still not working....
30 more days... just 30... why?? cause i need to confirm something...

on what is it that i need to do...
that what is it that i need to find in myself..

Am embarking on something that is not easy.
But i just have this feeling that I might be able to make it...
If i did.... I'll be so damn happy...
Really very happy.. Secret... i hope i won't fail this..

cause my family is looking at me on this...

I know i can do it... needs alot of studies... and attention too.. until i get used to it...
Sleeping late every night... tiring sia...

But the one staying up late with me is my father...
I admired this fact that he is working so hard and still stay up late with me...

I need to learn...

My mom wants me to make it big the first shot.. But how big is big?
Attention on this everyday? I am sure i'll become "Zai nan" soon if this carries on. hahaha
But i see this as not just work.. but a personal goal to make it big.
Well, also to proove my relatives wrong..

Just have to be carefull... and extra careful..

Today is Kailing jie's birthday! HAPPY Birthday!!! hee...