Friday, October 24, 2008

My Feelings

Warning, Super Long Post full of crap in my mind.
This doesn't seem to suit the previous post. so, i made a new thread.

My oldest memories that I ever have... was the one where I follow my father to see my sister's birth. It was in a hospital... I don't know which hospital, but I don't bother to check it also.
It was a quiet place and life was just ....Going pass so fast....

There was another one.. which comes first i don't know.... I was in a night market in amk with my mother. She was holding on to me... but I told her to let me down.. I was too fat for her to carry... and somewhere somehow... I got a dragonball imprint T-shirt at one of the stalls...

That was when i was 4, i assume. Other memories seems faded... A kiss with my cousin. My sister's big fall from the public seat , playing with my toys in the living room . competition and being jealous that i was the one who got first, but my teammates got 1st but i got 3rd... Hahah.. stupid story.. So embarrass, going to McDonald's for my friends party, mom bring me home for lion dance. going for art class. playing "soccer" with my cousin. role playing sukasuka ranger.
friend being hit on the head of the cabinet. Being in charge of the small library. reading Enid Blyton books , seeing my friends read Malorie towers, naughtiest girl series, The tree that grew... watch toy story 1 at the movie theatre. Crying at my birthday.... Shit man... I realise that my birthday is not a good day for me... every year at my birthday , I mange to cry or feel sad...
the first birthday i remember, crying cause i got bullied , Second one, I got hit by someone i don't know. 3rd, I thought that people celebrated for my cousin but not me ( we always hold birthday together cause we are born 1 day apart, different year though)( in the end, it was always on my birthday, not my cousin ) 4th , was P6, where i got my mom to treat a lot of people in my class at McDonald's. I was crying at 12 midnight to get it.. ( It was the PSLE science paper ) . then in secondary school, i remember only the one where my mom gave me money to eat McDonald's. But the catch is that i have to buy it myself and EAT by myself.... whahaa.... till poly year one... where i had my first really happy birthday... then year 2 and 3 i have Jie to start celebrating for me .hahaa... the usual gathering at Ju Ju hotpot. Till army...20th in OCS quietly if i am not wrong... 21st all alone in the field... 22nd ... hmmm.. I cried on that day.... Hahaha... had a very bad start in my forex trade.

Back from the side track... these are all my memories since young...
My mind then was just to live well, never had i thought of Work yet.. it wasn't until secondary school, where I had influences from my parents about stocks... It was very easy for me to take it up as it seems logically understandable. AS long as i am able to work out in logic, i would be able to understand it... Another moment that i had plan was about how to earn big amount of money... I had came up with a few which i wrote down somewhere... It all seems to me that I had it in me... till army.... I begin to think of what i want to do, what i should do. and what are the choices that i had when doing such a thing. I had a destination.. but the route was still in the process of being plan. Not until when I was out of the army.. when i pick up the book "Rich dad, Poor dad" that i begin to understand that my route was there, but there were actually more routes that i can take to get there... many things that were thought in there had gotten me to strengthen my own commitment. It had even grew my mind. I see myself growing in leaps and bounds in terms of my mind. I began to read more books, Clearing 20 books in 4+ months . A feat as i had never even hit 3 books a year prior to that. Financial Freedom is what i had aimed for. Just that i didn't know of such a term . I will become a millionaire.

I declare to the world, that I, Vernon Tay , would earn to be in the HighNetWorthIndividual List. and would want to conquer the UHNWI List. USD30 million is the benchmark.

I have the means to get there, I will get there...

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